Decision

Yea , i made a decision today .

I think , i'm not worth it for the one i like . She seriously deserve someone way better than me . Today , the some other people made her so happy , what have i done ? hmmm , not sure xD , but one thing for sure , she is happy with him . I know that , i'm not the one that can make her smile everyday , the some other people i said , well , he can make her smile almost everyday , aren't that so cool x) . I know that , i just wanna see the smile on her face . I'm already happy when she actually talk and care about me , man , that already satisfy me .

Just a "are you okay ?" can make me sooooooo damn happy xD . (yes i know i'm crazy , what you gonna do ? come malaysia and keel me ?!) . I wish , i'm the one that can make her happy ... but , it seem that's not the case . She seriously have so many choices , and who wants the crappy ones ? I know nothing , Studies ? no good . Communicating ? no good . She is just too good xD . the some other people i say , oh man , he rawks !!! communcating ? YESH (with a few exclamation marks) . studies ? YESH (with more exclamation marks) .

Also , i'm no longer a coward xD !!!! I said what i wanted to say to her !!! (with a few more people xD) , i just shouted out the three word . Since i guess i won't be saying this to her anymore ... i'll just say it here baby , I LOVE YOU x) .

Maybe i'll be down a few days , but IT"S HOLIDAY !!! so , i'll be okay when i go back to school x) . I have to control my emotion , must be genki everyday !!! I can't spread my "down" aura ...

Also , i wonder how long will she take to actually read this post xD , but it won't be today . So i've say it out , maybe she won't see it , but .... i seriously love her x) . When u love someone , gotta make sure she is happy everyday right ? And no no no , i'm not angry OR jealous to the some other people . He's a nice guy !!! I've made so many piece ... just for this girl i like , well hope she will apperciate them ? Atleast i can know i have SOME use , not totally useless xD . okay okay , just the third one , i love .... the girl i love xD ! sometimes i wonder why can't midori be a bit more attractive than the girl i like x( !!!!

It's not easy to let go cause ... she's a pretty and caring girl , well , it's easy to find a pretty girl , but it's not easy to find a pretty AND caring girl xD . so some other people if you got her , you better treat her nicely , else i'm gonna rip your balls off .

Until now .... i still don't feel like letting go xD . But .... i think i'll eventually let go x) ~~~